Sleepless nights

My first entry in this online diary. This is simply meant for me to record my experiences, day to day life, and travels.Last night was another of chaos. Couldnt sleep as usual. Each night insanity takes me and guides me through the cosmos. Each morning I wake up feeling as if the night before never existed. Its not that I'm on drugs, its my mind breaking free. I dont know whats real any more. With each step I take, it feels as if the ground beneath my feet is going to crack. I'm walking on a perpetual cloud, and each time I feel myself about to fall through, it all stops, and the cycle begins anew.I believe I fell asleep at 7am, and woke up at 12:30.The great aspect of my sleepless nights is that it gives me plenty of time to think.To ponder the mysteries of this universe and perfect my philosophy [Spiritual and Political].
Each day people disgust me further. The pointless talking, the ceaseless complaining, it makes me want to vomit. Its amazing how much weakness plagues this world. I barely talk to people anymore.

I as well began planning my trip to Europe. I plan to spend the majority of my time in Norway and Ireland. I will begin my trip in southern western Europe, and make my way east, west, and then continue north. I as well am considering, just staying and not coming back. I tried so hard to reintegrate myself into the world and become the social man I once was. But I was unable to, as I soon realized that there is no going back. Once you spend a year in the wild and see the true colors of the world. You realize that these scars are forever permanent. I was going to spend my youth enjoying the fruits of Los Angeles and my good looks, but I dont believe I will ever be able to. I planned on moving into the wild when I had exploited my youth fully, but again I see now that, this will never be so.