Intense night

Last night was a very powerful night
Demon-work is far more exhausting than I anticipated
The whole night felt like a far off dream
I might engage in it again tonight
Either that or I might just engage in a simpler spell

The whole atmosphere of my room has changed
There is like a spiritual residue or energy
Its fantastic
To not just see, but feel, the change brought in the universe by your own power
Brings about great joy
To know you hold the keys to limitless power
Mmm baby
I could get used to this

Santa Monica was visited by evil

If I be the first black magician to haunt these shores
Then Santa Monica has had its first true experience of evil
Communicated with the damned tonight
The ground is scorched with raw energy

Got in a fight; sort of

So I took a walk 2 nights ago
As I walked by a bar, a drunk started yelling at me
So I replied by calling him a "pathetic drunk"
As I turned to leave, he grabbed my jacket
So I swung around and knocked him to the ground
And spat on him
Was a very good night.

Black Metal

The discord, the chaos, it brings peace to my soul.

Black Metal is not just a genre.

Black Metal is limitless. Limitless in the sense that its drive, its soul is that of not just the individual, but the warrior.

Black Metal is the music of the Warrior.

It as well is such an extreme form of music; in lyrical content and sound.

I feel an immense connection to it in the sense that so many Black Metal artists are so misanthropic.

Many Black Metal bands dont even perform shows, thats almost viritually unheard of in the field of music.

Its as well easy to see where this recent alliance with crust has come in.

Both have a very extreme sound, have similar roots, and carry a semi-parallel message in some instances. [Mostly with more nature, primitivist, and misanthropic oriented Black Metal bands]

-Got some more info for the trip. Jamie needs to call me back, so we can get the details set.

Also I saw some commercial for some sort of organization for the survival of the human race after 12/21/12

theihc.com

I personally think its a publicity stunt [for the 12/21/12 movie]

There is alot of hype about that date.

I cant wait till it passes by like every other stupid "end of the world" date, and I can laugh and spit in the faces of those apocalyptic morons.

Well I am off to go connect with the Forces of Darkness

Spiritual War

Someone asked me today

"Why do you wear combat boots? Are you in a war?"

I replied "Yes, a spiritual war"

This statement had more meaning to my life than intended.

As I am engaged in not only in a spiritual war outside of myself, but also within.

Constantly engaged in combat with the weak and lazy side of myself that was allowed to fester in my younger years.

For much too long, I allowed myself to be less than I am capable of.

I am fortunate to have had such a revival in spirit at so young an age.

Most people go there entire lives being a mindless consuming idiot.

They achieve nothing, and are nothing.

Anyways.

I actually got some sleep today.

Felt good, but no matter how good it feels, I cant help but think of it as a waste.

Planned out more of the trip to Norway.

Going to do some Black Magick tonight.

Sadly though, I have to wait for the tapers to come in, before I engage in demon work.

Patience never hurt anyone though.

I also tried energy manipulation in relation to emotions.

Seemed to work.

Will have to give it a shot again tomorrow.

Sorrow is necissary for life to exist

Its amazing how stupid people are
I am constantly suprised and baffled at the lack of intelligence in this world
I have no tolerance for the weak and stupid.
This tolerance for weakness out of some belief that you are helping them is destroying our minds, bodies, and planet.
People dont seem to realize, that if you cannot find happiness from within, or are not willing to dominate and fight.
That you will be trampled on.
Never put down your sword, never stop fighting.
Peace is a Myth, Equality the bane of our existence.
For when you stop fighting, you become less than you can be.
And become another mindless idiot drone, drowning in the peace and comfort of a so called civilized world.
While your world crumbles around you.
This movement of happiness, love, and comfort will destroy us all.
Lest we find balance.
Responsibility, sorrow, struggle.
All necissary aspects of life and wisdom.

Sleepless nights

My first entry in this online diary. This is simply meant for me to record my experiences, day to day life, and travels.Last night was another of chaos. Couldnt sleep as usual. Each night insanity takes me and guides me through the cosmos. Each morning I wake up feeling as if the night before never existed. Its not that I'm on drugs, its my mind breaking free. I dont know whats real any more. With each step I take, it feels as if the ground beneath my feet is going to crack. I'm walking on a perpetual cloud, and each time I feel myself about to fall through, it all stops, and the cycle begins anew.I believe I fell asleep at 7am, and woke up at 12:30.The great aspect of my sleepless nights is that it gives me plenty of time to think.To ponder the mysteries of this universe and perfect my philosophy [Spiritual and Political].
Each day people disgust me further. The pointless talking, the ceaseless complaining, it makes me want to vomit. Its amazing how much weakness plagues this world. I barely talk to people anymore.

I as well began planning my trip to Europe. I plan to spend the majority of my time in Norway and Ireland. I will begin my trip in southern western Europe, and make my way east, west, and then continue north. I as well am considering, just staying and not coming back. I tried so hard to reintegrate myself into the world and become the social man I once was. But I was unable to, as I soon realized that there is no going back. Once you spend a year in the wild and see the true colors of the world. You realize that these scars are forever permanent. I was going to spend my youth enjoying the fruits of Los Angeles and my good looks, but I dont believe I will ever be able to. I planned on moving into the wild when I had exploited my youth fully, but again I see now that, this will never be so.